I have always been prone to periods of time where I am truly the worst Debbie Downer. Hey, it happens. I can’t always find the silver lining and sometimes people (and things) are overwhelmingly annoying. For a while now I’ve felt a combination of anger, frustration, stress, and even deep depression and anxiety. So as soon as the calendar ticked over to January 1st, I decided to give the idea of a gratitude journal a chance. What did I have to lose, right?
Sometimes I just get in a #mood I can’t explain, but when making this playlist it became pretty clear just what was causing the feeling. I constantly battle with how personal to be on my blog because it’s really scary to just put all your feelings out there into the void. Despite that being the entire point of a blog in the first place, right? It doesn’t have to be some fake, robotic, heavily curated space. It should be personable and real. That said, you never really know whose reading it, but here goes nothing.
One of my favorite things to Snapchat or Tweet is #mood. It’s usually some incredibly dumb (but funny) GIF or just a snapshot of real life. I realize I do it most often when I’m sad, annoyed, or frustrated. When I set out to make a playlist I really didn’t know where I wanted to go, but I knew I was just feeling down. Anyone within earshot of this playlist can see exactly what was getting me down: love and relationships.
There’s a wide range of emotions one goes through when their friends begin to announce they are having children. First, you wonder how you got this old where married people are starting a family. Then you try to forget about it because there’s a tiny little biological fire deep inside you wondering what’s wrong with you. Why don’t you have a babies of you own? Time is running out. You don’t want to be the old mom in the elementary school class, you wanna be the cool mom. You better hurry. Next, you gotta buy all the little baby stuff and attend a baby shower. This inevitably reignites the baby fire of confusion, and the cycle begins all over again.
Cynical? Probably, but deep down we all want the same things: love, marriage, (sometimes) kids. Naturally it’s a bit hard to avoid the existential crisis that comes along with all of these life events. Everyone else seems to have it together, what am I doing wrong? Eventually I came to the conclusion, age is just a number and my life isn’t together enough (yet) for me to mess up a poor helpless child’s life. But that still leaves one frivolous yet burning question: What the hell do I wear to a baby shower?
Summertime as an adult takes a lot more effort than it did when I was a kid. There’s so many more things that require attention as an adult. I can’t just wake up, eat some pancakes, watch MTV, and then hang out in the pool all day. Now if I’m lucky I might get a little vacation or staycation, but usually my time, like many, is spent working. But what about the weekend? Doing more fun adult things like laundry. Given it’s mid-July I feel like I haven’t made enough time for summer fun.
Enter my Summer Bucket List. I sat down and thought of a list of things I want to do or accomplish by Labor Day. Believe me making a bucket list is hard work. I couldn’t pick things that would be too hard to complete or things that were too boring (like organize my closet…again). So I tried to find a middle road of things that were only mildly nerdy or things I have never done before.
- Wear a bikini…with confidence – After losing about 50 lbs over the last couple years I still haven’t had the confidence to fully rock a bikini. So here’s to hoping I can find no shame in my almost-have-abs game.
- Take a mindfulness trip – No, not an altered state trip. A real trip where I am completely mindful and unplugged. Yes, living in the moment rather than snapping, instagramming, and giving people FOMO. A real two for one: unplugging for a digital detox and enjoying a new place.
- Spend an entire day with my best friend – Sure, I spend a lot of time with my best friend, Rachael, and it’s one of my favorite things to do. But I’m sure she’d spend an entire day of best friend adventures rather than sitting with me watching HGTV after having my wisdom teeth pulled. I know I sure would…
- Touch up on my French – I took French a couple of years ago in college, but got so frustrated by my professor I didn’t continue on. I know enough to watch French films and listen to French tunes, but no more than that.
- Enjoy a sunset from start to finish – I’m talking no phone and no photos. Just sitting still enjoying the nature and sounds of the city.
- Bake a pie – This might sound dumb, but truly the only pie I make is pumpkin for Thanksgiving. So I’d love to make a summer pie. Maybe a strawberry or peach?
- Read three books on the New York Times’ Best Seller’s list – Three books might be testing my ability to relax, sit and read. Not to mention my time limit of Labor Day. I checked out the list today, and there are quite a few good selections from what I can tell. The one’s that caught my fancy were: Devil in the White City, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck, and the Handmaid’s Tale.
I picked up a faux leather mini skirt at Zara while shopping for my recent vacation to Las Vegas. It was on sale and I figured might as well. I really liked it when I tried it on in the dressing room despite not really being sure what I would pair it with on a night out (or any other time really). In the picture above you can see it has a cinched waistband and pockets. Pockets are essential as any girl knows.
A faux leather mini skirt can give any wardrobe a little edginess without trying too hard. It can be paired with a feminine blouse or camisole to tone down the harshness of the leather or it can be worn with a simple t-shirt to make it look more casual. I’ve brainstormed a few ways to rock the mini with the hopes it gets more use than my faux leather birdcage skirt.
Fact: the last time I genuinely chose to wear normal shorts was in 8th grade. Yes, 10+ years ago and really because I was obsessed with my Abercrombie & Fitch collection of possibly too short shorts. Eventually as an angsty teen I decided to wear the most unflattering longer shorts and I truly wish I could forget this time of my life.
Cut to now where I have rekindled my love of denim shorts. This is quite possibly due to one of two things. Either my self confidence has grown (along with my ability to give no f*cks about imperfect thighs) OR I’m just tired of overheating during the summertime while wearing jeans. Doesn’t really matter either way because now denim shorts are my go-to whether I’m running errands or just hanging around all day. Embracing shorts has made my life 35,000 times easier and I regret having ever given them up. No offense, teen angst stage. You were pretty pointless style wise.
Of course it’s really easy to have denim shorts go south fast. If they are too short or distressed it’s simple to head into “no one wants to see that” territory. I have 2 formulas for rocking denim shorts right now, and both are equally simple but stylish. A tank top when it’s warm out and a sweater when I’ve had a bit too much sun or will be hanging out in the air conditioning.
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A way back somehow (I’m not very sure how) I began receiving the Goop email newsletter. A long with links to interesting stories on their website the offer tips and tricks, how-to’s and product recommendations on fashion and style. At the very end of the newsletter there’s a section of clothing and accessories they currently love. I think it’s pretty cool because what they choose often puts together a really chic outfit with clickable links to buy.
So I’m super casually borrowing it for my blog. I can’t confirm the people at Goop actually use, wear, or love those stylish pieces, but because this is my blog I can confirm I do. I thought this might be a little different than an #OOTD because I want to share the outfits I’m obsessed with or just think are pretty great.
This outfit I wore to Easter dinner at my parents this past weekend. The birdcage skirt is brand new in the spring releases of Who What Wear’s collection with Target. My only gripe is the white is very…thin when it comes to the sun. No matter what color underclothes I tried to wear there was a shadow or they were visible. I would much rather have this skirt in black (it’s available online). Other than a pretty spring skirt the rest of what I chose were just classics in my closet.